We all need to take a pause at times. The stop creates a wait in between our time. The space in between can create such a beautiful space.
Life has many of us in such a flustered space so when we take time to stop and pause it creates space within. Our lives are a story that leaves many in a place they never stop to wonder. Pausing is that space where we leave the last action to rest. It is like a sentence that has to pause to continue again.
When we practice this, we leave a lot of baggage behind if we learn the art of pausing sometimes. When we feel like our day is running like a racehorse at times. Take some time to pause in between your time. You will see the difference and you will get a lot more done in a short space of time.
Today make an effort to pause in between small tasks and you will see a huge difference with your time. Practice stopping and pausing for just a little while even just a half a minute with tasks and you will master this art with time.
Leaves have a life span it grows and eventually drops off. Someone lifespan can be the same, you can grow and aspects of your life can drop off. Every person has a life span with activities, things, places, and people that eventually grow apart.
There was one an old wise man who lived to age 104, he was one of the oldest persons in a village and many called him wise. Time will pass and many have passed on in life, and he was always seen in his gallery looking outside content and always with a pleasant smile.
Over the years many would ask, how he managed to handle the many loses in life as many spoke about his constant smile and pleasant face. There were many stories in the village about his wife dying and losing his parents at a young age. He was always pleasant to everyone although he suffered much lost. Little did they know he was having a hard time but he always manages to keep the smile.
He lived to 104 and he had three sons and 8 grandchildren but he never remarried after his wife died after having his third son. One day his first grandson asked him, granddad, how you managed to stay so pleasant after so much loss. He turned around and looked at him with a smile and said my son, my first grandson I am so happy you asked.
He smiled and said I look at my life as a tree as I grow many leaves have formed but eventually they do fall off. I look at the same with life tragedies situations happen and eventually they drop off the branch. I become strong and continue growing new leaves which may create fruits from my leaves.
His grandson was surprised as he never looked at life like that before. So he turned and asked, how come you never remarried after grandmom died? He smiles again and said you are a wise young man, I will tell you a secret. He said after your grandmother died she never left my life. He asked how, he said she was still in my life through our sons, and they became our new leaves in life. They eventually bore fruits by having you, my dear. So I never lost her, my life was already complete and all my leaves were bearing lovely fruits.
My child, I am happy and I know one day you will see the leaves on your tree bear fruits one day as well. Love is lovely and leaves to create life.
Billy was holding on he did not want to let go of Sam because he was falling in love and did not want to say this to her. He knew she was wondering what was happening as he hardly said much but as the weeks passed and spending time with her he realized she is a charm.
He would check her every day and take tests and bring medication for her without hesitation but as the results starting setting in he realizes it may be too late for her. His heart was dropping as he has had many patients in his life but this one was leaving a warm fuzzy feeling he didn’t like very much. Especially as he knows he may not be able to save her, each day passed and he realizes why other doctors did not take her case.
She had a multitude of complications that required medications that is not even prescribed and even if he tried it will have serious complications. He would ensure every day she was not pushing herself too much and even ensured she was getting daily rest. But inside he knew that was not enough for her, she needed a cure and fast.
Each day passed and she was getting weaker and weaker but her persistence to take care of her flowers and do art was one he highly admired. Many neighbors would pass and say, she is looking really out of it are you sure you know what you are doing? But Billy did not understand what was wrong with her and as time passed and he confined with other doctors he was running out of time.
There were many mornings she was not even able to walk because of the pain but the medication she has been taking eased the pain. Her sisters would visit her from time to time and insist that she moved in with either one of them but she refused every time. Billy became her biggest help and three months have passed and he just could not put his hands on her condition.
One day he went in by her and found her lying on the floor he rushed to pick her up and realize she was bleeding badly from her hands. She had fallen while moving one of her painting and fell hard on the floor. Thankfully he reached on time to be able to help her. Then he saw something he never saw before an Aconitum napellus flower. He was surprised as he never recognize this plant in her yard before, he took it from her and threw it immediately in the bin.
She was weak but her look was puzzled. He said softly to her that the flower is deadly and believe it was contributing to her illness. He picked her up and put her on the chair and asked her why she has the plant and worse yet picking it from the roots. She told him that a doctor told her he needed the plant to heal people, he was in shock and immediately asked who is the doctor?
She told him his name and knew who it is, this is the same one who called him into the area for his expertise. He was having a little trouble with him as he was selling medication without authorization from the authorities. Billy knew he had to do something about Doctor Ben who had to be stopped immediately.
He asked Sam if she has been taking any of the medication he has been giving. She said yes, and gave him the little bottle, it was a green substance. Billy said to her, to stop taking it as it is killing her slowly.
Now that he has figured out what was causing her illness he had a new problem with him. He asked himself, who else has this substance and what is the long run effects of this product? Billy looked at Sam and asked her how long have you been taking this, she said approximately a year. He asked who else you think takes it, she said maybe everyone but she has been taking the strongest dose especially now.
He watched Sam and noticed something he has not been seeing all along how she became weaker and weaker in a shorter time. It was like the medications were creating a serious effect on her and by now she should have died if she was taking this a year now. He knew the mixture of the product was off but with what he asked himself and he became a bit scared now as he was not sure if others have the same effects from this product or something worse off. He had two tasks on his hands now. Find doctor Ben and figure out what is in his medications fast, before it is too late.
It is going to be hard to start over, to head to the unknown and try again. They say you never know what you have until it is gone but this time it stings and cuts like a knife.
I do not like being send into the unknown and unfamiliar. This time is going to be different, this time I have to be stronger, this time I have to swallow the pain and push to move forward. This time Goodbye is going to be different. I would not make the same decision that can land me in the same situation again. This time I would transform to a butterfly.
I know this happened for a reason and the reason would show up one day. I am in pain yet again, life has once again hurt my heart and old wounds that I thought was healed is showing up again.
This time I will address this situation, this time I will admit, I am wrong for letting myself get too comfortable and allowing life to drive me to a wall. I will admit I didn’t put myself in the driver seat this rounds. I will take the driver seat and take charge of my life I will leave this situation with my head high and always remember I am worth more than what life throws at me with a curve-ball.
This is my opportunity to shine, and I will so will each person who reads this and feel totally defeated by life. We will move forward from a caterpillar to a butterfly.
We attract what we think and every situation creates a reaction so remember when life throws at you a curve-ball or lemon. You can take that situation and create your own destiny. Every obstacle to a opportunity and every failure as a stepping stone closer to success.
Close the door, stop banging on it trying to open it back. Leave it alone and move on, this time really say goodbye. This time accept what is, embrace what you feel, forgive yourself and say goodbye.