Have you ever reached a point in life you know you are having a rebirth.

A rebirth within yourself that you know you need to have happen within you.  

This rebirth happens to everyone at least once in their life. 

This rebirth takes us to many places even to the deepest and darkest spots within ourselves that can help us grow and learn each and everyday about our dark truths.

The darkest spot that we always try to avoid everyday and would never make the effort to sit with  because it stairs the truth. 

This truth we never want to embrace because of hidden past or shames.

We are living in a time where everything is being shown up.  All that is in the dark is coming to the light and many including myself is beginning to question almost everything around us.

Over the past few years I have been having a awakening and this awakening has been very eye opening.  Many would say it opens us up to the truth and others will say it is just a clear wake up call for us to transform our lives.

These awakening can bring light to many situations especially those that we never want unfolding for us.

Over the past few years my life has been shaken up and each event that take place has really broken my heart in ways that I would never expect.

Honestly,  I can never look at anything the same again.  Everything has changed and everything is changing so drastically in both a good way and bad.

As things continue to unfold, what I am realizing is what I thought I wanted all along I no longer a  want of mine.  All that I dreamed of having is no longer a goal of mine and the people I use to look up to is not the ones I  envision myself becoming anymore.

My mindset has changed and with the change I will admit.   I have lost a few along the way, close friends, associates and maybe even family members.  They have either gone different paths or I just do not see eye to eye with them any longer.

It is all a part of life.  When I was younger I would remember one of my aunts who is no longer alive say everyone will leave you behind.  I even recall a associate from the past telling me this as well but now that something close to this is occurring I am realizing.  No one is leaving me  behind, I have moved on.

I no longer see any of this the same again.  I have learned that everyone has their own journey and mine is not to be followed the same as before.

For many years I have been the one who is always there but now I am never really around.  I protect my energy and continue avoiding all situations that is no longer me.  

It is like I do not even want to walk down or have a look at that road again.

It was a long road and I will admit there are times I question what direction I am really heading.  I am not 100 or even 75 percent certain what direction I am leading towards. But I do know I am heading somewhere I want to go for me.

Every day I am waking up with passion and a drive for life and not feeling like a zombie or robot that is just following a system put in place for me.

It was never a easy decision to make the choices I did but I had to stay to this and embrace this darkness I felt when I question myself about LIFE.

Because it is within all of those deep, dark energies I faced myself and realize.  I can no longer experience life the same.  I could no longer just go with the flow and tell myself everything was put in place already for all of this, I could not allow myself to fall into that trap AGAIN.

So, here I am doing what I love and taking everything one step at a time.  Embracing the uncertainty that what life is, awakening spiritually and  yes leaving behind the life I knew. 

All of this is for my future that God has been calling me towards for many years. I did not have a clear picture what it would have been and I still do not fully understand it.  But I know he has been pulling me away from the system  I was born into for many years and asking me to make changes.

He knew I was set out for much more than what I have been told and seen for many years.

I have seen the changes in life and seen how things will not be the same ever again.  But how we are allowing this new system to run our lives will tell us a lot about ourselves and our future generation.

In the next 10 years a lot will be changed drastically and I do believe things will be unrecognizable to the point we would never notice.

This is because we maybe to swoop in what OUR lives will be unfolding for us. 

As life unfolds let us really appreciate the moment we know all we have is now.  And really appreciate what life has presented to us because maybe very soon what we know will never be the same again for any of us.

If you are not satisfied with you life right now.  DO NOT WAIT.

Make all the necessary changes you know you have to, listen within really listen to your consciousness and follow that voice that is trying to tell you something.

It will not be a easy journey and you may lose a few along the way but really listen within and make all the necessary changes you know you need to today for your tomorrow.

Leaves have a life span it grows and eventually drops off. Someone lifespan can be the same, you can grow and aspects of your life can drop off. Every person has a life span with activities, things, places, and people that eventually grow apart.

There was one an old wise man who lived to age 104, he was one of the oldest persons in a village and many called him wise. Time will pass and many have passed on in life, and he was always seen in his gallery looking outside content and always with a pleasant smile.

Over the years many would ask, how he managed to handle the many loses in life as many spoke about his constant smile and pleasant face. There were many stories in the village about his wife dying and losing his parents at a young age. He was always pleasant to everyone although he suffered much lost. Little did they know he was having a hard time but he always manages to keep the smile.

He lived to 104 and he had three sons and 8 grandchildren but he never remarried after his wife died after having his third son. One day his first grandson asked him, granddad, how you managed to stay so pleasant after so much loss. He turned around and looked at him with a smile and said my son, my first grandson I am so happy you asked.

He smiled and said I look at my life as a tree as I grow many leaves have formed but eventually they do fall off. I look at the same with life tragedies situations happen and eventually they drop off the branch. I become strong and continue growing new leaves which may create fruits from my leaves.

His grandson was surprised as he never looked at life like that before. So he turned and asked, how come you never remarried after grandmom died? He smiles again and said you are a wise young man, I will tell you a secret. He said after your grandmother died she never left my life. He asked how, he said she was still in my life through our sons, and they became our new leaves in life. They eventually bore fruits by having you, my dear. So I never lost her, my life was already complete and all my leaves were bearing lovely fruits.

My child, I am happy and I know one day you will see the leaves on your tree bear fruits one day as well. Love is lovely and leaves to create life.

Much love everyone.

Billy, was a orphan and experienced a hard life. He didn’t know love and grew up without knowing any kind of love. Growing up he never knew his parents and always wondered who they were as he was abandoned as a baby.

He was told his mom was a drug addict and his dad was in jail and unreachable. This broke Billy heart he couldn’t wrap his mind around any of this, all he wanted was to know who he was and where he came from in life. He would despise other children in school as he would have no one to drop and pick him up from school or no one to attend his parents teacher meeting.

It was always a social worker or a nun from the orphanage. No one wanted him, no family wanted to adopt him because he was fighting in school and even bite a few kids. His rage was huge and he was a love less little boy. He would put all his rage in art. He could draw and his paintings was always dark , teachers was always concerned and the sisters in the orphanage was scared with his paintings, he would see himself as a wolf or a monster because he didn’t know what to believe with himself anymore.

Billy was crying in the night, at times he would cut himself and in school he never passed a class. He experienced his life in total rage and couldn’t find a way out he was crying for help. He needed help at a tender age of 10 Billy was ready to give up on it all.

No birthday celebrations, no one to play with, no gifts and no friends. Why am I even here he would ask himself. No one cares and he was ready to give up. One day he got a rope and was ready to hang himself like in the movies he always saw. He got that rope and was ready to end it all.

Then something happened he felt a lick on his feet. And there he was Rex his dog, his only friend he would talk to him and tell him everything. He looked into his eyes and saw the look of concern and immediately he dropped the rope picked him up and took him inside.

The thought of death totally left his mind and he felt a warmth in his heart. He never felt this before and from that moment Rex his dog saved his life from hanging by that rope.