I am just not interested in fitting in. Seriously I am just not interested any longer.
I have tried all my life to fit in a box every one tries to place by me but I just cannot fit in any. Unfortunately I cannot even try any longer I am no longer interested.
I was never interested in the first place. It was never appealing to me .
You know that box that is placed there for every one to fit in. When we get in the box we stay in the box with the walls around us. We never remember what the box looked like outside because we never came back out the box.
Well I have been in the box and out many times. Let me be honest I love being out side the box. To see every thing from a wider angle the inside is too trapped I feel clustered in it.
My experience with this box is always different every time. I go in and after a little while I realize I want to go back out wondering Why I went back in.
That box that is there for each one of us to enter with every life situation. Is like we have to step inside this box.
There are a few times I have dance around the box and walk around it. But that box is not for me to step in and stay. I have tried and failed many times. Want to hear the funny part?
I do not want to succeed staying in this box. As I have seen staying is worse than leaving this box.
That box that drains you of all your energy. That box that has many trapped by society expectations. That box that has many chained to dept. That box that has creatives believing art has to be measured by a standard.
That box that has many young people chained to generational belief. When they themselves probably had it wrong.
That box that many step in and never venture to step back out. Because they are told that the box is the answer. Not realizing once you step in and you never step out.
Today religion is in a serious shake up as a Spiritual War fare is happening all the time around us. We have to be aware what is taking place in us and around us.
The battle many of us are facing is a serious one as we have to endure.
Part of the battle is questioning a lot of what have been spoon fed all our lives. As the truth comes out many of us are faced with questions. After the questions are answered we are yet again faced with more questions.
Religious leaders are modernizing a lot of their beliefs, traditions and having many churches following and becoming a stray.
Today I ask how can a church lead a flock when they do not want to follow God true word and commandments?
The Church particularly the RC churches are heading down a new road of self destruction that many like myself have been seeing and warning for years. The word is being twisted and the scandals that are faced is trying to be faced in a humanly way instead of a Spiritual way. A church that is leading many to a way we may regret later down the line.
So much have changed over the years and so much more changes is going to arrive. Many will folk out of the churches when they are trying to get more in the church buildings.
Jesus said where two or three are in my name there I am with them. A time is coming when many have to choose at the same time question where they are heading in this world as we are all facing a Spiritual warfare. Whatever we are faced with we have to ensure that Yeshua stays the center of it all.
Question the church and all the new changes they want to bring on board. Question why they want to make these changes and keep those in prayers who are standing up for justice and truth.
This is the time. Many have warned us about many years ago.
Let us be aware of what is taking place and do not be afraid of asking questions.
Our world has changed drastically, and it is impressive to see how everything has changed in the twinkle of an eye.
The matrix has been exposed for what it truly is, and many are finally awakening to the truth.
Our world is reaping what it has soared for many years, and many see the flaws in our world system.
We finally see how fragile our world is, the corruption, the hate, and our freedoms and rights we have been fighting for taken away.
We live in some fantastic times, and the truth is that things are beginning to unfold as it will all lead us to make a choice.
We either take the red pill or the blue pill. Each one leads us in a direction one leads us to truth and escaping the matrix.
The next one is for us to stay drowned down by fear and lies of what the world is feeding us every day.
The choice is yours.
I made this choice before the pandemic, and it was the best choice I ever made. It has been two years since I have let go and exiting the matrix.
Today I am letting you know it is time to let go of the world systems’ grip on us. Let go of worshiping the celebrities whose lives are not one we should not be aiming towards.
If you do not know by now, most celebrities have taken vows to the evil one.
Many cannot escape the lie because their blood is trapped in it for life.
They have sold their souls knowingly just for the fame, glitter, and more glam of life. Now it is all crumbling down in front of them all, and many are losing it all.
The athletes are the same many spent their lives pushing towards agenda knowingly and some unknowingly. The hard part of it all many did not know and they are now faced with a life they was not prepared for.
Everything is being lighted up. The rich will fall with time, the governments will crumble, and many youths will be scarred for life.
This is all because we have reaped what we have planted, many have not plan for a pandemic. Many never thought fires would destroy a whole area forest leaving permanent damage. And if we think that is all, we are on the brink of war in many places.
This seems all doom and gloom for 2020 and maybe a few years beyond. But there is light at the end of the tunnel. That is, this world is about to expire and the truth of all of this is a new life is upon us—a life of true love, peace, passion, and purpose.
Suppose we seek it and find true love—unconditional love from God with a promise of eternal life. True love will come down from above when all of this madness is done. When this world is finished, we have destroyed all around us with our greed, anger, hate, and selfishness.
God Most High will bless those that seek true life during these times of madness with eternal life. Life not of the flesh but of spirit and truth because we will be in truth.
This is my blessed hope for all of us.
This is only found in Jesus Christ, his love is unconditional, and our world is preparing the stage for many to be with him.
You do not want to be left behind when the stage is finish set for Satan’s final showdown.
This term that is used quite often is now a common trend among many. We use this as a main stream and call it a part of life, not realizing we are creating something that can be unchangeable within and around us.
We call it a mood and have it within us like a ultra ego that is waiting to take over us slowly but surly.
We change and become something we never knew we had deep within us.
That only comes out when we call on it to be released. Sometimes we do not even realize we have called on it as it comes out so easily and we never question ourselves when this mode is trigged off.
Some would argue that Beast Mode is a gift we become firy, fearless and passionate something we all need to release often. Some will say this is the energy we need to get things done. What we never realize, this beast mood can be here to stay and we would never realize how badly this can affect our mood systems.
This energy can come out as heavy and vicious when we do not want this energy to be release from within us. This fiery passion that comes up from an alter ego within can actually do more harm than good to many of us.
Passion can turn into hate
Fearlessness can turn into anger
Persistence can turn into attachment
Which can lead us down an ugly road. What I know many do not realize is this same energy can be used in situations that clearly do not need a BEAST MOOD.
We switch on this beast mood in our daily lives when we are consuming hate in our news feed. Violent movies, over doasing of alcohol, watching porn and engaging in heated arguments.
We are feeding that beast that we assume is there to help us with our passion. What many of us do not realize if we cannot control this beast,this same beast will control us.
So, today control that Beast that is all within us.
There is a point in our life we find ourselves looking deep within and realizing we have been holding ourselves back.
It may not be a easy one to come to terms with and this is something I think every other person has to face. We sabotage ourselves one way or the other, either by second guessing outselves, underestimating ourselves or giving too much of ourselves.
In life there needs to be balance and the moment you are not feeling this you know you are sabotaging YOU. It is not selfish to want to see yourself shine and really embrace a little of your life. We all need this from time to time but there need to be a balance with this and when it is found. Keep the balance within your life.
This can be in work, family , friends and relationships. There needs to be a give and take because what happens when you find yourself giving your all and not getting anything in return our subconscious mind do record this within us. The same goes when we continue taking and not giving back in return, our innerself knows what we are doing is wrong.
The Circle of life is based on balance and if we do not have balance we tend to find ourselves in some real turmoil. Within ourself and it shows up in our relationship. We must know there needs to be balance within our lives and not allow anyone to always take from us and not help us full our cup back up. How are we suppose to share ourselves with others if we are not filled up enough to help ourself because we have given our all to someone else benefit. Our love is to be shared with all those around us and we are not to be limited to those we love and know.
Balance is one of the keys to success in our lives and seeing change among us.
Have you ever reached a point in life you know you are having a rebirth.
A rebirth within yourself that you know you need to have happen within you.
This rebirth happens to everyone at least once in their life.
This rebirth takes us to many places even to the deepest and
darkest spots within ourselves that can help us grow and learn each and
everyday about our dark truths.
The darkest spot that we always try to avoid everyday and
would never make the effort to sit with
because it stairs the truth.
This truth we never want to embrace because of hidden past
We are living in a time where everything is being shown
up. All that is in the dark is coming to
the light and many including myself is beginning to question almost everything
Over the past few years I have been having a awakening and
this awakening has been very eye opening. Many would say it opens us up to the truth and
others will say it is just a clear wake up call for us to transform our lives.
These awakening can bring light to many situations
especially those that we never want unfolding for us.
Over the past few years my life has been shaken up and each
event that take place has really broken my heart in ways that I would never
Honestly, I can never
look at anything the same again.
Everything has changed and everything is changing so drastically in both
a good way and bad.
As things continue to unfold, what I am realizing is what I
thought I wanted all along I no longer a want of mine. All that I dreamed of having is no longer a
goal of mine and the people I use to look up to is not the ones I envision myself becoming anymore.
My mindset has changed and with the change I will
admit. I have lost a few along the way,
close friends, associates and maybe even family members. They have either gone different paths or I
just do not see eye to eye with them any longer.
It is all a part of life.
When I was younger I would remember one of my aunts who is no longer
alive say everyone will leave you behind.
I even recall a associate from the past telling me this as well but now
that something close to this is occurring I am realizing. No one is leaving me behind, I have moved on.
I no longer see any of this the same again. I have learned that everyone has their own
journey and mine is not to be followed the same as before.
For many years I have been the one who is always there but
now I am never really around. I protect
my energy and continue avoiding all situations that is no longer me.
It is like I do not even want to walk down or have a look at
that road again.
It was a long road and I will admit there are times I
question what direction I am really heading.
I am not 100 or even 75 percent certain what direction I am leading
towards. But I do know I am heading somewhere I want to go for me.
Every day I am waking up with passion and a drive for life
and not feeling like a zombie or robot that is just following a system put in
place for me.
It was never a easy decision to make the choices I did but I
had to stay to this and embrace this darkness I felt when I question myself
Because it is within all of those deep, dark energies I
faced myself and realize. I can no
longer experience life the same. I could
no longer just go with the flow and tell myself everything was put in place
already for all of this, I could not allow myself to fall into that trap AGAIN.
So, here I am doing what I love and taking everything one
step at a time. Embracing the uncertainty
that what life is, awakening spiritually and
yes leaving behind the life I knew.
All of this is for my future that God has been calling me
towards for many years. I did not have a clear picture what it would have been
and I still do not fully understand it.
But I know he has been pulling me away from the system I was born into for many years and asking me
to make changes.
He knew I was set out for much more than what I have been
told and seen for many years.
I have seen the changes in life and seen how things will not
be the same ever again. But how we are
allowing this new system to run our lives will tell us a lot about ourselves
and our future generation.
In the next 10 years a lot will be changed drastically and I
do believe things will be unrecognizable to the point we would never notice.
This is because we maybe to swoop in what OUR lives will be
unfolding for us.
As life unfolds let us really appreciate the moment we know
all we have is now. And really
appreciate what life has presented to us because maybe very soon what we know
will never be the same again for any of us.
If you are not satisfied with you life right now. DO NOT WAIT.
Make all the necessary changes you know you have to, listen
within really listen to your consciousness and follow that voice that is trying
to tell you something.
It will not be a easy journey and you may lose a few along the way but really listen within and make all the necessary changes you know you need to today for your tomorrow.
Have you ever looked back at your life and said I had the whole thing wrong this whole time?
Well we live in a very different generation line where many are making our older generation look like they had it wrong all the time. Some may even say this generation have it all wrong.
Either way someone has it …. wrong.
But, it may not be completly wrong. As many millemiums have shown that tradition, rules, routine and everything else of the past 10 to 20 years is no longer a part of life. Many would say this is the reason we are in a messed up planet, I will say it is the reason we are making progress and fixing some of the errors.
To be honest, humanity kinda took many things too far or too literal. We are now facing a lot of new problems that need a new mindset. Fortunately, our current generation is seeing the problems and willing to address the issues. We are really standing up for ourselves, and letting the world know. Hey, this is not right.
A lot has changed drastically in the last 10 years and it is because nothing can ever stay the same . I am hoping we are not addressing climate change situation and a lot of other issues too late.
But, there is a God and he knows our heart. So, I trust everything will fall right into place. As I am getting kinda spiritual here, on this topic the word religion in some ways more than others have changed drastically. This is a topic I do not like to discuss much or at all. But, I do have to admit a lot of changes are taking place both positively and negatively.
A lot of millemiums eyes are being opened and realizing that the traditional rules some of us have been following is causing some hovic . The older generation may say it is the reason we are facing some challenges in religion. I would say it is time to realize we are dividing ourselves with different belief systems.
Technology has really changed the game in a lot of beliefs, traditions, rules and structure. But we are humans and have the power to use this to our advantage to probably save our planet, prevent one or two wars from happening and saving the generation after us from hate,envy,jelousy,racialism and religious division.
Maybe our generation would be the ones making the changes that really needed to take place many years ago. Because if we dont step out, break the cycle, help many get out the “rat race” and beat the system. We can be looking at traditions,routine, systems controlling us and destroying us completly.
To me the last few generations was not blessed the way we are now and many held back and really went with what they knew. There was a few that really shaken up this world and made huge changes . We know them and love them. But to be honest there was not enough, in our time at least half the population is tired, fed up and want something new.
Many are going out their way to change the “norm” including myself. Because we want change not only for ourselves but for others. It is not fair to have another generation embrace half the challenges our planet is facing and about to face without knowledge, example, proper leadership and a little less burden from last generations.
It is not fair to drown our children and children children with things we was told was the way to live and never challenge any of this for the better.
Our world has changed whether we like it or not, sorry to say. It will never be the same and reminiscing on how old times was is not helping any of us with the struggles we have to face if we do not deal with the issues NOW.
Trust me when I say we have many issues, worldwide. We have to all make a effort to bring change into our lives because if we do not. We may not have anyone who would be able to live to 50 on this planet. The stress levels would be too much, murder rates around the globe will be a nightmare, climate change will destroy a continent and wars will begin all over the place over every issue raised.
Let us take what is happening now as a example, and make small steps within ourself to change and then we can begin to change those around us. I am hopeful for the future of our planet because I see hope in my generation and the next.
We had it wrong for many years and many of us want change. So, let us all make the decision to bring change into our lives step by step.
This way our children and grandchildren would watch the news and smile because they know they can walk down the street without being harassed. They can go to the mall, they can travel without fear around the globe and know their parents had a part to play in creating a changed world for the better.
“The world is gonna judge you no matter what you do. Live your life the way you want, stop pleasing everyone. “
No matter how hard we try to please everyone, people are still going to judge us. It is something we cannot control in this life.
Many of us, including myself, struggle with this on a day to day basis. It hurts to know we are watched and judged because of many different reasons that we cannot even comprehend.
A lot of people cannot understand what is happening in someone life and they stop to judge based on what they see in front of them. It is human nature and something we all have to stop.
A lot of millennials are struggling with just summing up the word called life. We are in an era that is so different from our past generations that we either get ahead in life or stay stuck in a rut. This can be a challenge that many faces and it leads to mental health issues we cannot even face.
Many older generations would say we are too pampered or can’t take time to really dig into life but when in truth we are always judged and cannot face our reality at times. It is a hard one to swallow when so much is happening around us and time is passing by and we are stuck comparing our lives to one another and think we are a failure in our time.
Judging someone based on what you see in front of you can be a test of time and it has been happening for many generations. Unfortunately, ours is a different test with every single resource we have some would assume we have it all figured out. When in truth so many are testing it all we have lost our way with time.
Christian religion says do not judge and yet still our humanity is doing this each and every single day. If it is not happening in the workplace, religious organizations, peers, parents or a random stranger. We are stuck doing it to ourselves, comparing our lives to everyone else and making ourselves sick with regrets. Judging is causing many of us to hold back and yet we do not realize it does not matter because in the end we will be judged anyway.
So let us all take some time to not judge anyone when a thought comes to mind about someone and we have no idea what is happening around them. Just remember, let us not judge and maybe take a second to stop and ask if they are ok because the person can be having a hard time or trying to deal with this thing called life.
Every day each of us is faced with something, and it is all a part of life. But at times we have to really stop and look at our lives and not around at other people lives. When we do this one, I believe this world can save a lot of lives who are struggling with mental awareness.