This can be one of the most horrific feelings anyone can face. The agony,the shame,the disgrace and the pain. It can all come rushing down and hit you bang in the face.

Many of us suffer with this day by day and have no idea how to face any of this by the day. It can be eating away at our skin and our pain can be so deep it cuts like a knife. Many would say I live with so many expectations, that at times I forgot how it feels to actually fail. So, when this hits you in the front page your heart can’t take it anymore.

My eyes, oh my eyes, the pain I feel from crying out my eyes. I know so many feel this pain because we live in a world in so much pain. That we forgot when we actually end up in pain we can’t even manage to lift up our heads to see the vail.

Time and time again, we would fail but we have to find a way to mold it away. I wish I had a pill that says, it will pass away but I know it will be a lie after some time. Living with pain is a hell of a thing, that when it actually goes away we forget, that actually one day we have to deal with all of this again.

So I would say when it comes to facing failures and pain we have to find a way to deal with all of it. When we do figure it out, remember to lift your head and move on. All the sweet words of time heals everything , and everything happens for a reason is all nicely said to all. But we all know when something tragic happens, it is hard to fall asleep at night.

All the prayers and quotes can give us a push to move forward but in the end it is up to us to really want to move forward. Many talk about all the success many got but they always seem to forget to mention the amount of failures they had to endure to get where they are to this day. So don’t get too tied up with most success stories and always remember to ask how they got to that point.

Take back up your life and wipe away those tears because no one actually cares what you are doing with your time. Most just want something to talk about and many want one just one to take that jump.

Do what you want and if you fail many times. Just know that at least you tried. This life is full of many disguises and one of them is making everyone feel like they have to wear a disguise for all.

This is your life to live and failure and pain is all of part of it but know when you have made it. You have really made it and most of the times it is because of failure and pain and you understand the true meaning of life.

Much love everyone.

 “ The law of attraction states that whatever you focus on, think about, read about, and talk about intensely, you’re going to attract more of into your life.” – Jack Canfield.

I am successful

I am capable

I am worthy of all the good in my life

I create win-win relationships

I am proficient in my abilities

I am powerful

I deserve success

We must affirm these and many more every morning. It is the stepping stones of our lives, it is what brings us to the next place and the next level.

The universe is created for us to manifest our goals into the world. We have to think of it, to achieve it and embrace it.

There is a saying the harder the battle is, the sweeter the victory would be for us. Whatever it is we want to achieve, it will be a difficult road and may even feel overwhelming at times. Those are the moments we have to feel it and embrace it because we are getting closer to our breakthrough.

Each morning we must take ownership of our lives, write down that goal, find a way and test yourself. Take that extra step, envision yourself reaching that goal, feel the victory and embrace it. You will reach that peak moment, once you show up and make the sacrifice and take a bold step every day.

Watch your movements, how you take each step and be consistent with yourself each morning and show up. Create the life you envision for your self, know your mission and you will know what will drive you.

Create your life your mission and never make it about your position. Each day look at yourself in the mirror and remember your mission and push for that vision. We all have it, I know deep in your heart you know you want more in your life.

Always know the way to what you are doing in this life and with every movement. Ask yourself why am I doing this? Be mission-driven, make your life mission-driven and you will see the difference every morning.

Whatever it is you want in life remember to ask yourself. Why do you want it? Be clear about what you want. Write down your goals daily for what you want to achieve. Feel every moment of your life because its only one you have left. Be a good receiver on everything and be grateful for small blessings.

Make every action with what you want to expect in life. Create that destiny you envision. See abundance in everything and always be consistent. If you see it, believe it, envision it every morning, you will reach that goal in this life. The universe is always on your side.

“Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.” 
― 
Maya Angelou

One of the hardest lessons anyone has to learn is to trust that everything around us will work out for the best. We love to be in control no matter the situation, we love to know what is next, many of us hate the unknown.

Trusting that everything will work out for the best. Trusting that the Universe is on our side. Trusting a love one after betrayal. Trusting yourself sometimes can even be hard because we are all afraid of the unknown at times.

In the end we have to trust that things will work out, that the universe is on our side and those that hurt us will run their course in our lives. We will learn to trust ourselves, our mental awareness will get tougher and we will have to face the unknown. Some of us will thrive and some will fall but eventually they will pick themselves up. Life is about trusting the universe, ourselves and others that things do work out for the best , although we may not see it now.

Trust can be hard and sometimes painful but it can lead us to that breakthrough moment we all have been waiting for in life. There are many sayings that can heal wounds and aid with trusting our life journey but there is one that always stands out to me the most.

Proverbs: 5- 6 – 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

This passage always helps whenever I feel unsure about anything next and whenever I feel in the wilderness and lost. At times we have to learn to trust and let go of trying to control everything around us. I will admit this is hard but it is possible, only when we let go and trust the process , the journey of life.

Life leads us in many roads and at times we just have to trust and let go and not lean on our own understanding.

This year went by fast, I will not even sugar coat this statement. I feel like I just ended 2017 and 2019 knocking on my door too fast. Where did the time go?

I would admit this year a lot has happened and I have also been in a rush. I have learned a lot and grown a lot as a person. I have also been in a rush a lot, I have basically been rushing everything, even to the point I decided to put my watch 20 minutes faster than the actual time.

Today I decided to have my watch right, with the right time so I wont be rushing. I am not a morning person so I am not even going to lie to myself about reaching anywhere early. If I am running late, so be it I won’t be speeding down the highway, breaking the orange light to reach ” on time” . I have been rushing , rushing , rushing away and time have just passed away.

I will embrace every moment, take each minute, hours and days with gratitude. 2019 is my year to shine, step out my comfort zone and begin to slow down. It’s not a race to the finish line.

I have no new year resolutions and have no intentions to create one. 2019 I am looking forward to new challenges, improving myself, living a full life, exploring this mysterious world, forgiving, letting go and taking everything slowly.

2018 was a rush, a beautiful rush that almost broke me . Honestly, 2018 was a tough year that had me rushing and panicking. 2019 I would not let time pass and let the clock tick away with my life.

To let go.

To move on.

To begin again

It may hurt but in the long run it will strengthen and change you. As we begin to look into the new year ahead and reflect on 2018, let us get the strength to declutter anything in our lives that no longer serves you.

The bad habits.

The toxic people.

The negative thinking.

Procrastinating.

Living to others expectations and not ours .

Not speaking up.

Settling.

These are a few things many allow to control their lives. For me I have to gain the strength not speaking up, settling and trying to meet everyone expectations. It hasn’t done me any good to this day. We all have something we need to let go and find the strength to move on from today.

Today’s World can throw anyone over the edge if we allow this to happen.

Expectations and comparisons are two of the biggest pains of today’s world. Each day someone is faced with comparison to someone who we think has it all put together. While others are put under pressure of reaching other people expectations which can be unrealistic or become unbearable for many.

It makes many wonder why depression, violence and hate is so strongly existence in our world. Many have become frustrated with there day to day lives they cannot stop to think of another feelings. Many cannot even stop to help a neighbor or worse yet a stranger because we are so caught up in our lives. Trying to meet today’s world expectations and comparing ourselves to almost everyone who seems to have it all put together. When in reality non of us have it figured out because our world changes daily and we have to change our outlook at our lives.

We have to change in small ways that can build a better world. Changes start with each one of us, first accepting we all have different life paths. This will help us stop comparing ourselves to one another. Second small change can be setting our own expectations and letting others know what we can contribute to change situations around us.

Speak up and let your voice be heard even if it stirs up a room. In the end you will be heard for your views and set a tone in any situation that can allow you to have some control.

One of my hopes for 2019 is for peace, happiness and love within our world. Many of us are surrounded by so much hate we have lost ourselves. So many have become so drawn out by our lives we can no longer smile, enjoy a meal with family or find our inner child within us anymore. We have become so caught up in wars, politics and negativity. No wonder so many suffer with anxiety and depression rates are so high around the world.