Have you ever looked back at your life and said I had the whole thing wrong this whole time?

Well we live in a very different generation line where many are making our older generation look like they had it wrong all the time. Some may even say this generation have it all wrong.

Either way someone has it …. wrong.

But, it may not be completly wrong. As many millemiums have shown that tradition, rules, routine and everything else of the past 10 to 20 years is no longer a part of life. Many would say this is the reason we are in a messed up planet, I will say it is the reason we are making progress and fixing some of the errors.

To be honest, humanity kinda took many things too far or too literal. We are now facing a lot of new problems that need a new mindset. Fortunately, our current generation is seeing the problems and willing to address the issues. We are really standing up for ourselves, and letting the world know. Hey, this is not right.

A lot has changed drastically in the last 10 years and it is because nothing can ever stay the same . I am hoping we are not addressing climate change situation and a lot of other issues too late.

But, there is a God and he knows our heart. So, I trust everything will fall right into place. As I am getting kinda spiritual here, on this topic the word religion in some ways more than others have changed drastically. This is a topic I do not like to discuss much or at all. But, I do have to admit a lot of changes are taking place both positively and negatively.

A lot of millemiums eyes are being opened and realizing that the traditional rules some of us have been following is causing some hovic . The older generation may say it is the reason we are facing some challenges in religion. I would say it is time to realize we are dividing ourselves with different belief systems.

Technology has really changed the game in a lot of beliefs, traditions, rules and structure. But we are humans and have the power to use this to our advantage to probably save our planet, prevent one or two wars from happening and saving the generation after us from hate,envy,jelousy,racialism and religious division.

Maybe our generation would be the ones making the changes that really needed to take place many years ago. Because if we dont step out, break the cycle, help many get out the “rat race” and beat the system. We can be looking at traditions,routine, systems controlling us and destroying us completly.

To me the last few generations was not blessed the way we are now and many held back and really went with what they knew. There was a few that really shaken up this world and made huge changes . We know them and love them. But to be honest there was not enough, in our time at least half the population is tired, fed up and want something new.

Many are going out their way to change the “norm” including myself. Because we want change not only for ourselves but for others. It is not fair to have another generation embrace half the challenges our planet is facing and about to face without knowledge, example, proper leadership and a little less burden from last generations.

It is not fair to drown our children and children children with things we was told was the way to live and never challenge any of this for the better.

Our world has changed whether we like it or not, sorry to say. It will never be the same and reminiscing on how old times was is not helping any of us with the struggles we have to face if we do not deal with the issues NOW.

Trust me when I say we have many issues, worldwide. We have to all make a effort to bring change into our lives because if we do not. We may not have anyone who would be able to live to 50 on this planet. The stress levels would be too much, murder rates around the globe will be a nightmare, climate change will destroy a continent and wars will begin all over the place over every issue raised.

Let us take what is happening now as a example, and make small steps within ourself to change and then we can begin to change those around us. I am hopeful for the future of our planet because I see hope in my generation and the next.

We had it wrong for many years and many of us want change. So, let us all make the decision to bring change into our lives step by step.

This way our children and grandchildren would watch the news and smile because they know they can walk down the street without being harassed. They can go to the mall, they can travel without fear around the globe and know their parents had a part to play in creating a changed world for the better.

Be the change you want to see from today.

Planning is an unnatural process; it is much more fun to do something. The nicest thing about not planning is that failure comes as a complete surprise, rather than being preceded by a period of worry and depression.   –John Harvey-Jones

Surprise, surprise, surprise. This is what life is saying to me now. The feeling of things getting out of control and out of reach is overwhelming. Positive mind, positive mind, I keep saying this to myself to center my mind so it can stop thinking even for just a while.

Bong then Bang, one after the next, life keeps throwing all these curve balls at me and quite out of control with them. How am I suppose to manager all this load by myself?

Here take this, maybe you can do with a little excitement. I don’t think you have enough stress to keep you occupied. This is how I feel when life just won’t give me a break with everything because for a second everything was actually fine.

It’s winter time in most lands, where you are is too sunny let me help you with that one. Life decides to have my heart feeling ice cold as I honestly don’t know which way to turn. Here let me help you maybe you can bleed a bit by ensuring you can feel everyone pain and put yourself aside for a bit. Yes my caring nature is so wonderfully adored by all.

Take some more pain and lets top it all with a little retrogates. Yes, let me remember a time I had one of the hardest moments, by abruptly bringing up something. That seems all so familiar right.

Don’t worry I am not done yet because I know you are strong so just wait I have a lot more in store just for you.

Doesn’t it all sound so familiar, well to me it is. Life can be a roller coaster and it can seriously feel like its not on your side at times. At the end of the day,life happens and it suppose to, it only shows we are alive.

The Universe spins off from life, so when surprise, surprise events happens, let us stop and think for a while. Let us take a step back and ask ourselves what can we do now to fix this problem. If its not fixable move on.

The hardest lesson in life to learn is to keep a positive mind in all situation. It is not impossible, but it is possible to keep a calm steady mind threw it all.

When it all feels like it is tumbling down. Let us stop, breath, reflect and take a step back to center ourselves, then tackle our problems.

Much love everyone.

This can be one of the most horrific feelings anyone can face. The agony,the shame,the disgrace and the pain. It can all come rushing down and hit you bang in the face.

Many of us suffer with this day by day and have no idea how to face any of this by the day. It can be eating away at our skin and our pain can be so deep it cuts like a knife. Many would say I live with so many expectations, that at times I forgot how it feels to actually fail. So, when this hits you in the front page your heart can’t take it anymore.

My eyes, oh my eyes, the pain I feel from crying out my eyes. I know so many feel this pain because we live in a world in so much pain. That we forgot when we actually end up in pain we can’t even manage to lift up our heads to see the vail.

Time and time again, we would fail but we have to find a way to mold it away. I wish I had a pill that says, it will pass away but I know it will be a lie after some time. Living with pain is a hell of a thing, that when it actually goes away we forget, that actually one day we have to deal with all of this again.

So I would say when it comes to facing failures and pain we have to find a way to deal with all of it. When we do figure it out, remember to lift your head and move on. All the sweet words of time heals everything , and everything happens for a reason is all nicely said to all. But we all know when something tragic happens, it is hard to fall asleep at night.

All the prayers and quotes can give us a push to move forward but in the end it is up to us to really want to move forward. Many talk about all the success many got but they always seem to forget to mention the amount of failures they had to endure to get where they are to this day. So don’t get too tied up with most success stories and always remember to ask how they got to that point.

Take back up your life and wipe away those tears because no one actually cares what you are doing with your time. Most just want something to talk about and many want one just one to take that jump.

Do what you want and if you fail many times. Just know that at least you tried. This life is full of many disguises and one of them is making everyone feel like they have to wear a disguise for all.

This is your life to live and failure and pain is all of part of it but know when you have made it. You have really made it and most of the times it is because of failure and pain and you understand the true meaning of life.

Much love everyone.

“Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.” 
― 
Maya Angelou

One of the hardest lessons anyone has to learn is to trust that everything around us will work out for the best. We love to be in control no matter the situation, we love to know what is next, many of us hate the unknown.

Trusting that everything will work out for the best. Trusting that the Universe is on our side. Trusting a love one after betrayal. Trusting yourself sometimes can even be hard because we are all afraid of the unknown at times.

In the end we have to trust that things will work out, that the universe is on our side and those that hurt us will run their course in our lives. We will learn to trust ourselves, our mental awareness will get tougher and we will have to face the unknown. Some of us will thrive and some will fall but eventually they will pick themselves up. Life is about trusting the universe, ourselves and others that things do work out for the best , although we may not see it now.

Trust can be hard and sometimes painful but it can lead us to that breakthrough moment we all have been waiting for in life. There are many sayings that can heal wounds and aid with trusting our life journey but there is one that always stands out to me the most.

Proverbs: 5- 6 – 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

This passage always helps whenever I feel unsure about anything next and whenever I feel in the wilderness and lost. At times we have to learn to trust and let go of trying to control everything around us. I will admit this is hard but it is possible, only when we let go and trust the process , the journey of life.

Life leads us in many roads and at times we just have to trust and let go and not lean on our own understanding.

Billy, was a orphan and experienced a hard life. He didn’t know love and grew up without knowing any kind of love. Growing up he never knew his parents and always wondered who they were as he was abandoned as a baby.

He was told his mom was a drug addict and his dad was in jail and unreachable. This broke Billy heart he couldn’t wrap his mind around any of this, all he wanted was to know who he was and where he came from in life. He would despise other children in school as he would have no one to drop and pick him up from school or no one to attend his parents teacher meeting.

It was always a social worker or a nun from the orphanage. No one wanted him, no family wanted to adopt him because he was fighting in school and even bite a few kids. His rage was huge and he was a love less little boy. He would put all his rage in art. He could draw and his paintings was always dark , teachers was always concerned and the sisters in the orphanage was scared with his paintings, he would see himself as a wolf or a monster because he didn’t know what to believe with himself anymore.

Billy was crying in the night, at times he would cut himself and in school he never passed a class. He experienced his life in total rage and couldn’t find a way out he was crying for help. He needed help at a tender age of 10 Billy was ready to give up on it all.

No birthday celebrations, no one to play with, no gifts and no friends. Why am I even here he would ask himself. No one cares and he was ready to give up. One day he got a rope and was ready to hang himself like in the movies he always saw. He got that rope and was ready to end it all.

Then something happened he felt a lick on his feet. And there he was Rex his dog, his only friend he would talk to him and tell him everything. He looked into his eyes and saw the look of concern and immediately he dropped the rope picked him up and took him inside.

The thought of death totally left his mind and he felt a warmth in his heart. He never felt this before and from that moment Rex his dog saved his life from hanging by that rope.

This year went by fast, I will not even sugar coat this statement. I feel like I just ended 2017 and 2019 knocking on my door too fast. Where did the time go?

I would admit this year a lot has happened and I have also been in a rush. I have learned a lot and grown a lot as a person. I have also been in a rush a lot, I have basically been rushing everything, even to the point I decided to put my watch 20 minutes faster than the actual time.

Today I decided to have my watch right, with the right time so I wont be rushing. I am not a morning person so I am not even going to lie to myself about reaching anywhere early. If I am running late, so be it I won’t be speeding down the highway, breaking the orange light to reach ” on time” . I have been rushing , rushing , rushing away and time have just passed away.

I will embrace every moment, take each minute, hours and days with gratitude. 2019 is my year to shine, step out my comfort zone and begin to slow down. It’s not a race to the finish line.

I have no new year resolutions and have no intentions to create one. 2019 I am looking forward to new challenges, improving myself, living a full life, exploring this mysterious world, forgiving, letting go and taking everything slowly.

2018 was a rush, a beautiful rush that almost broke me . Honestly, 2018 was a tough year that had me rushing and panicking. 2019 I would not let time pass and let the clock tick away with my life.

To let go.

To move on.

To begin again

It may hurt but in the long run it will strengthen and change you. As we begin to look into the new year ahead and reflect on 2018, let us get the strength to declutter anything in our lives that no longer serves you.

The bad habits.

The toxic people.

The negative thinking.

Procrastinating.

Living to others expectations and not ours .

Not speaking up.

Settling.

These are a few things many allow to control their lives. For me I have to gain the strength not speaking up, settling and trying to meet everyone expectations. It hasn’t done me any good to this day. We all have something we need to let go and find the strength to move on from today.

Once upon a time on a Christmas eve night a child was in a orphanage who never celebrated a Christmas with any family or friends. He was bullied in school and had no one to call family. Each year he will look outside and see children playing with their new toys and enjoying the precious moments with their closest family and friends.

At that moment he would ask himself would I ever be able to experience a true Christmas the way I see others. He felt lonely, depressed and completely hopeless as each year passed it was the same story. One Christmas eve night he made a wish on a star , his wish was to be happy and loved. He wanted a family, a friend, a mentor basically anyone as he never knew what love is from the start.

In school everyone would share there experience or bring gifts for one another and he would crave to know what this feeling is like. He never knew what a hug feels like, a warm smile, receiving anything from anyone or knowing about a Christmas cheer. He only knew what everyone else told him and what he saw outside that window. No one ever opened a door to him for this season as he was looked at as just a orphan.

So, each year on Christmas Eve night he made one wish. Hoping one day his wish could be granted.

Today’s World can throw anyone over the edge if we allow this to happen.

Expectations and comparisons are two of the biggest pains of today’s world. Each day someone is faced with comparison to someone who we think has it all put together. While others are put under pressure of reaching other people expectations which can be unrealistic or become unbearable for many.

It makes many wonder why depression, violence and hate is so strongly existence in our world. Many have become frustrated with there day to day lives they cannot stop to think of another feelings. Many cannot even stop to help a neighbor or worse yet a stranger because we are so caught up in our lives. Trying to meet today’s world expectations and comparing ourselves to almost everyone who seems to have it all put together. When in reality non of us have it figured out because our world changes daily and we have to change our outlook at our lives.

We have to change in small ways that can build a better world. Changes start with each one of us, first accepting we all have different life paths. This will help us stop comparing ourselves to one another. Second small change can be setting our own expectations and letting others know what we can contribute to change situations around us.

Speak up and let your voice be heard even if it stirs up a room. In the end you will be heard for your views and set a tone in any situation that can allow you to have some control.

One of my hopes for 2019 is for peace, happiness and love within our world. Many of us are surrounded by so much hate we have lost ourselves. So many have become so drawn out by our lives we can no longer smile, enjoy a meal with family or find our inner child within us anymore. We have become so caught up in wars, politics and negativity. No wonder so many suffer with anxiety and depression rates are so high around the world.