I am sounding like my parents but when normal things are no longer normal. You have to say I miss the old days
So I will admit I miss the old days when I saw people true faces. Not ones that are covered with masks and under that mask is another mask. The irony I am experiencing these days. Actually everyone is experiencing this but for many they are just following protocols.
2020 to now is some strange years but I am actually grateful to experience this one. This is the year I am missing a normal normal day. The days when we could be in a crowd or go somewhere and not worry being looked at wrong for not wearing mask like everyone around.
The days when you don’t see people worried about getting sick. Covid 19 virus has really made this world change.
The world we loved and enjoyed is no longer what we dreamed of anymore. Many lives are changing and many lives are being taken away either by this virus or the fear of the virus.
I am just not interested in fitting in. Seriously I am just not interested any longer.
I have tried all my life to fit in a box every one tries to place by me but I just cannot fit in any. Unfortunately I cannot even try any longer I am no longer interested.
I was never interested in the first place. It was never appealing to me .
You know that box that is placed there for every one to fit in. When we get in the box we stay in the box with the walls around us. We never remember what the box looked like outside because we never came back out the box.
Well I have been in the box and out many times. Let me be honest I love being out side the box. To see every thing from a wider angle the inside is too trapped I feel clustered in it.
My experience with this box is always different every time. I go in and after a little while I realize I want to go back out wondering Why I went back in.
That box that is there for each one of us to enter with every life situation. Is like we have to step inside this box.
There are a few times I have dance around the box and walk around it. But that box is not for me to step in and stay. I have tried and failed many times. Want to hear the funny part?
I do not want to succeed staying in this box. As I have seen staying is worse than leaving this box.
That box that drains you of all your energy. That box that has many trapped by society expectations. That box that has many chained to dept. That box that has creatives believing art has to be measured by a standard.
That box that has many young people chained to generational belief. When they themselves probably had it wrong.
That box that many step in and never venture to step back out. Because they are told that the box is the answer. Not realizing once you step in and you never step out.
Do not let anyone fool you. With all the glitter and glam. If it is the one thing for sure. You never know how they got there and this statement is a powerful one for our every day lives.
We see them all over social media, showing off and making it look as if everything is all fine.
Darling, let me tell you a secret. It may not be all glitter and glam around them at all.
Within and outside of them,it can be filled with comparisons,pain,depression and high expectation from everyone around them . Each and every day trying to live up to some false expectations from others.
Social media has made us a generation of comparisons slaves. We just have to tell the world what we just accomplished and we have to take a selfie of every single thing.
We can’t keep our latest events to ourselves and we just have to show off on everyone else. We have our own selves to blame for the high rate in aniexty cases, depression and suicidal rates.
Because we have not stopped to think of the effects we are causing to one another mental health. We have added fire to the pot in creating comparisons with one another by posting everything that we get our hands on. Without thinking of the other person who may not want to see this on their feed anymore.
Sure, we can unfollow, unfriend and just ignore. But sometimes that is easier said than done. Especially if it is a close friend or worse yet family member who is just mindlessly telling everyone on the internet what they mastered again.
While we maybe taking baby steps every day and making small wins. But just not in the big way others may have it. And that my dear friends is where depression sinks in, if you are not strong enough.
Let me honest here with that one , even the “strong one” have their moments. Trust me on that one. Because life is a funny thing that we cannot take too seriously sometimes.
One of the reasons is just when we got a little control on one of our life situations. We go onto our social media profiles and find ourselves comparing our lives with many others around our same age group.
Then we begin to question ourselves. Oh,I just got a promotion that I have been working hard for , but now I am wondering maybe I am missing something
All because we went on our phones and see Lucy got engaged this weekend. And maybe you are still single or just came out a relationship. Now your no longer as excited as before because although you are happy for Lucy you can’t help but wonder.
It has all happened to us at least once. We can be at the top of our game or struggling to stay in the game.
We know we always feel this pinch and what we never know is we can come out this race.
By actually not caring what anyone even thinks.
As I said Life is a funny thing and if you take any of this too seriously you will realize.
The age of social media where we are all wearing mask online and offline.
Everything posted on instagram and facebook where someone is in front of a camera and is all a lie. The reason I say this is because we have put on filters and adjusted our camera to make it look real.
We fake a smile and position our head a certain way and add filter to it that we need to put on a show. Everything is made up everything is fake we love the attention because we are missing something inside.
Something we are searching for something we know is missing. We put on a grand show and make it look as though everything is fine but deep inside we are alone. We live in a world where a mask cannot be taken off without a show.
All these selfies and still I cannot tell which one is actually real. But if we look into the person eye we would see the unhappiness deep inside. We cover it up and look forward to our next selfie yet we never realize time is sweeping by and we never notice we are out of time.
All this time we was busy in the moment of taking away selfies and wearing a mask we never realize something was leaving us behind. Time was not waiting anymore and while we was not in the moment and letting others know the real you.
Time was slipping by when we look back at those selfies we realize, what we posted at the time was never really us inside.
Well the first step is a choice. A choice is put in front of you and depending on your decision you either move forward or stay stuck.
That choice can also make or break you. This can be a choice to break the tradition, beliefs or routine. It is going to shake your whole life up. A safe choice is not a choice as this will keep you stuck but you will feel a sense of security. As some would say to themselves. But, making a bold choice can be daughting and end up being the best decision of your life.
This can change the whole game for you. It can switch a few things in life and sometimes, we are not ready for some of it. Unfortunatly, life does not wait on us and if you have not notice time does not as well. Every day we get older and hopefully wiser based on our choices.
We learn and grow from a choice and at times it is that bold choice. That helps us mold the way forward. Decisions are never a cup of tea for me and I never envy anyone who has to make them. But I do know when someone is torn between two choices they really have to think deeply on what lies ahead. Holding back from the choice they know can help them can be unhealthy as progress may never happen within their life.
From my experience especially recently I have found the better choice is always the bolder choice but the feelings of making the choice can be tough. There can be consequences that I may have to face and of course we know the famous disappointment we have to embrace.
But in the end a choice is still left to make and most of the times. It is better to go with the choice that scares you because that is the one that will help grow, expand and embrace the fullness of life. After all isnt that what we are on earth for …… to live.
So, why are so many of us not doing this including myself,holding back.