This year went by fast, I will not even sugar coat this statement. I feel like I just ended 2017 and 2019 knocking on my door too fast. Where did the time go?
I would admit this year a lot has happened and I have also been in a rush. I have learned a lot and grown a lot as a person. I have also been in a rush a lot, I have basically been rushing everything, even to the point I decided to put my watch 20 minutes faster than the actual time.
Today I decided to have my watch right, with the right time so I wont be rushing. I am not a morning person so I am not even going to lie to myself about reaching anywhere early. If I am running late, so be it I won’t be speeding down the highway, breaking the orange light to reach ” on time” . I have been rushing , rushing , rushing away and time have just passed away.
I will embrace every moment, take each minute, hours and days with gratitude. 2019 is my year to shine, step out my comfort zone and begin to slow down. It’s not a race to the finish line.
I have no new year resolutions and have no intentions to create one. 2019 I am looking forward to new challenges, improving myself, living a full life, exploring this mysterious world, forgiving, letting go and taking everything slowly.
2018 was a rush, a beautiful rush that almost broke me . Honestly, 2018 was a tough year that had me rushing and panicking. 2019 I would not let time pass and let the clock tick away with my life.
You can feel it in your veins. You become more aware and your heart can no longer just accept what lies ahead for you. You know something has to change.
Dreams become more clearer and you can feel it in your bones that something within you wants to be awakened. You can no longer just let everything around you just pass. You start to understand life more clearer and have a better understanding of what you want from your life.
You would be determined to design the type of life you want. Signs begin to show, you begin to see a certain number more often and you begin to feel more and see situations more clearer.
This can be a beginning, a beautiful beginning but to get a beginning you need to embrace the end. Sometimes a end can be painful but it’s up to you how you take this ending journey. Signs can show up in dreams, numerology or even a random stranger. It’s the beauty about life that can be adventurous and mysterious.
It’s those moments you take to embrace what is in front of you. To love the very moment you have because it’s a blessing. Take that moment to learn from the situation and move on because everything that is happening around you and within you is your spiritual awakening moments in this life.
It may hurt but in the long run it will strengthen and change you. As we begin to look into the new year ahead and reflect on 2018, let us get the strength to declutter anything in our lives that no longer serves you.
The bad habits.
The toxic people.
The negative thinking.
Living to others expectations and not ours .
Not speaking up.
These are a few things many allow to control their lives. For me I have to gain the strength not speaking up, settling and trying to meet everyone expectations. It hasn’t done me any good to this day. We all have something we need to let go and find the strength to move on from today.
The little joys found in decorating for the season of Christmas. This ranges from a snow man, to a nativity scene, artificial flowers or real flowers grown in a garden. Each decoration is unique, special and has a taste of a little Christmas Cheer for everyone.
The rush of the wave, the energy, current, the pull and sometimes heaviness of the ocean is a stir of emotions from the sea many cannot understand. Its a beauty to see from afar, it can be thrilling to surf with and for some the water beating on you can feel like the ocean water is washing away someone daily stress.
The ocean is one to be respected, cared for and connected with, she has been with us since the beginning of time. She has seen generations come and go and she still stands with us today. The Ocean is the source to our lives, the ocean has been feeding us with life from the very beginning of time. Her beauty and radiance is one of the many wonders of the world that can never be replaced.
So I just have to ask, why are we killing her in our times?
Don’t we think she will take back what belongs to her after some time?
Today’s World can throw anyone over the edge if we allow this to happen.
Expectations and comparisons are two of the biggest pains of today’s world. Each day someone is faced with comparison to someone who we think has it all put together. While others are put under pressure of reaching other people expectations which can be unrealistic or become unbearable for many.
It makes many wonder why depression, violence and hate is so strongly existence in our world. Many have become frustrated with there day to day lives they cannot stop to think of another feelings. Many cannot even stop to help a neighbor or worse yet a stranger because we are so caught up in our lives. Trying to meet today’s world expectations and comparing ourselves to almost everyone who seems to have it all put together. When in reality non of us have it figured out because our world changes daily and we have to change our outlook at our lives.
We have to change in small ways that can build a better world. Changes start with each one of us, first accepting we all have different life paths. This will help us stop comparing ourselves to one another. Second small change can be setting our own expectations and letting others know what we can contribute to change situations around us.
Speak up and let your voice be heard even if it stirs up a room. In the end you will be heard for your views and set a tone in any situation that can allow you to have some control.
One of my hopes for 2019 is for peace, happiness and love within our world. Many of us are surrounded by so much hate we have lost ourselves. So many have become so drawn out by our lives we can no longer smile, enjoy a meal with family or find our inner child within us anymore. We have become so caught up in wars, politics and negativity. No wonder so many suffer with anxiety and depression rates are so high around the world.
To my vacation in paradise earlier this year. One of the many sister islands close to me that I enjoy spending time. Sand, sea and less than one hour flight from home. Barbados was a beauty and I enjoyed visiting this island that is so close to my home land Trinidad.
Traffic, last minute shopping with all the rush and little to no parking spots left you would swear its weekend rush. I am not running late with gifts this year but unluckily for me I had one more gift to buy and was caught in all the hassle today.
All the lights, music, food and decorations everyone loves this season it either has a meaning to some or it traditions brings happiness in lives. Christmas movies, children looking forward to seeing Santa in malls and making a wish list for Christmas morning is something that’s a beauty to see. Schools are closed for children in my little island of Trinidad and so many take this opportunity to take time with their little ones, some even get them involved in all the preparation. It was like this when I was young, I found myself helping with all the decorations, cleaning, painting, volunteering and heading Christmas events. All these moments became traditions that has passed along from generation to generation.
Now as a adult I still heavily participate in all the Christmas activities and appreciate this season more than anything. I also have to take a moment and be appreciative as so many do not have that privilege or cannot celebrate this season the same way . Many have lost a loved one, some are without jobs or unable to celebrate with a family member or partner because of distance. This can take a toll and can easily set a tone for a season.
My only wish for Christmas is that everyone finds happiness in everything and keep each moment special this season. Make traditions if you don’t have, smile at a stranger, play Christmas music even if its for 10 minutes, give a meal to the homeless or just relax. Whatever is planned I hope everyone find a little peace, joy and happiness. In the beauty of this season.
Each day is a blessing to truly appreciate the beauty of this life.
This year I learned to appreciate each moment.
This happened when I almost had no moments left.
One accident changed my life when I was at rock bottom. My
world was surrounded by trying to get back to my routine not knowing this
routine was killing me slowly.
Change is never easy and starting over was my biggest fear. But when your
biggest fear watches you straight in the face sometimes it can be a blessing in
disguise for the best.
We are given choices in life and I always believe what we choose determines
our life path and future. Growth takes trust that the universe will work
everything out for the best no matter how difficult it may seem at the present moment.
Each moment is a blessing to grow, love and build a deep awareness of
self and truly learn to appreciate each moment in this life.
This year was a tough one,it built me and broke me. In the end I learned
some hard lessons, had some tough changes and faced some of my fears.
Now I will be able to say to anyone who may feel they lost a part themselves
or cannot deal with changes to embrace the moments and know there is
always an end and sometimes we have to face these difficult moments to truly appreciate life in the present moment.